I am a single mother to two lovely girls ages 2 and 4. I am also a college student and full time employee. My life is busy, I am proud and believe in hard work. I do my best all the time to support my girls. Lately I hav been discouraged and find it hard to keep up he fight. I am physically tired. In the morning I have to get up, get me and the kids ready, get them to school with all supplues and their lunch. Then be at work on time. I have two supervisprs and work in a busy mental health rehabilitation center. All day I am stressed. When I get off work I have to get the girls and as much as I want to spend time with them lately I feel tired and want to sleep. But I have to make dinner, do dishes, pay the bills, do the laundry, supervise play, read books, mop, sweep, take out tash, scrub the toilet and shower, provide every basic necessity. Then I have to fight to get them to sleep sometimes, and as much as I would love to lay down and sleep with them by my side I have to do homework. Lately I have been staying up until three and getting up to do it all again at 5. It never ends. Not to mention my mother is diagnosed with a mental disease. My aunt passed leaving me the responsible adult for her three daughters. My brother (my best friend) is leaving for Navy training next month. My ex got fired so child support stopped. My bills are past due. My debt is so bad that they might start taking from my checks. I am in therapy for being sexually abused as a child. I have practically no relationship with my father. I want to scream. I like to think that I am strong as an ox and that I have what it takes to survive and will make the best of what life has given me. But this week I found out that I have gallbladder disease. It is causing great pain. I have a $1,097 share of cost for my medical insurance and there is no way I can pay it. I am afreaid that my condition will worsen and I cant afford to be sick, I worry about who will take care of my children if something happens to me. Im so overwhelmed that I am unable to focus my thoughts. I am desparately fighting to hold myself together. I don't feel hopeless but right now I have nothing offering any hope in my life. I know the Lord is good and things could be worse, but this is so hard.
