By the way I love in La MEsa, CA

i have come to the realization that I need to attend counseling. i have had a rough childhood and am faced with many issues in my life. i want to be a great mom, good student and valued employee and think that counseling can help me in organizing all aspectes of my life. i think that gaining knowledge about who you are and why you behave in certain ways is an important step in recovery. i currently see a christian counselor that i like, but it's so expensive. with my new medical affliction I am expecting to have some extreme medical bills. there will be no more money for counseling, but i think i will need it now more than ever. if anyone is aware of free or low cost therapy or family counseling services or resources please post information here. Thanks. 

today i am thinking about the womens group i attended last night and about how i am going to deal with the pain in my side with the medical insurance i have and about getting homework done and about everything i have to do at work. it seems like with so many big things going on i can't focus on just one thing and I feel like i am getting nothing accomplished. it would appear that i have it all together, but im really a big huge mess. my thoughts are wandering and i am unable to control my mind like i feel i should. smiles are few and far apart right now. i know God heals and he hears and that our overcoming obstacles is a part of becoming better people. I know all this, but at this moment that knowledge is not making it an better. i waste so much time doing nothing and all i think about is having more time to do everything. please pray for the Lord to lay his hand on me and help me to accept his love and peace. I want to give it all to you Lord, but how?

I know that when I get home from work I am soooooo tired and the last thing I want to do is cook. But the most importat thing is providing my girls with a nutritious meal. To be honest we usually end up eating chicken nuggets, french fries, oven pizza's, cheap fast food or soup. What are some quick, easy, inexpensive, but healthy, meal ideas for the busy single mom? If anyone has any ideas or recipies with a short prep time please post them here. 

thank you for this. im going to check it out because i have a gallbladder problem and am unable to pay for treatment. if i find anything worthwhile i will let you know. 

what about applying for financial aid? have you checked with your school counseling office for more resources?

I think that is the most riduculous thing that I have ever heard of. I am sure nobody has no insurance becase they prefer it that way. People go without insurance because they can not afford it, they need basic things like food and water and clothing first. If people were able to worry less about things like basic needs and insurance we they might be more productive members of society. Its hard to excel when all your circumstances are against you. 

I am a single mother to two lovely girls ages 2 and 4. I am also a college student and full time employee. My life is busy, I am proud and believe in hard work. I do my best all the time to support my girls. Lately I hav been discouraged and find it hard to keep up he fight. I am physically tired. In the morning I have to get up, get me and the kids ready, get them to school with all supplues and their lunch. Then be at work on time. I have two supervisprs and work in a busy mental health rehabilitation center. All day I am stressed. When I get off work I have to get the girls and as much as I want to spend time with them lately I feel tired and want to sleep. But I have to make dinner, do dishes, pay the bills, do the laundry, supervise play, read books, mop, sweep, take out tash, scrub the toilet and shower, provide every basic necessity. Then I have to fight to get them to sleep sometimes, and as much as I would love to lay down and sleep with them by my side I have to do homework. Lately I have been staying up until three and getting up to do it all again at 5. It never ends. Not to mention my mother is diagnosed with a mental disease. My aunt passed leaving me the responsible adult for her three daughters. My brother (my best friend) is leaving for Navy training next month. My ex got fired so child support stopped. My bills are past due. My debt is so bad that they might start taking from my checks. I am in therapy for being sexually abused as a child. I have practically no relationship with my father. I want to scream. I like to think that I am strong as an ox and that I have what it takes to survive and will make the best of what life has given me. But this week I found out that I have gallbladder disease. It is causing great pain. I have a $1,097 share of cost for my medical insurance and there is no way I can pay it. I am afreaid that my condition will worsen and I cant afford to be sick, I worry about who will take care of my children if something happens to me. Im so overwhelmed that I am unable to focus my thoughts. I am desparately fighting to hold myself together. I don't feel hopeless but right now I have nothing offering any hope in my life. I know the Lord is good and things could be worse, but this is so hard.